I am in college right now, taking online classes. This isn't a blog entry as much as it is a disclaimer. I recommend everyone seriously consider furthering their education. The best jobs oftentimes require four-year degrees. It's much to my dismay that I never got mine. Honestly, wrestling in Japan and TNA has given me the time of my life, but my greatest fear is that that life doesn't have a whole helluva a lot going on after wrestling. I wish I had that safety net, I wish I had that security, and I wish I wasn't kept up at night wondering about my future past the age of 30.
But I am, so I deal with it, and part of that is making sure I take classes when I can. It's not easy, but it makes me feel like I'm proactive and doing something with my life other than destroying my body and wasting time. Unlike others, I don't necessarily need or want the adoration of fans. Don't get me wrong, it's awesome that they give us their support and they're a necessity for everything we do. If no one watched me wrestle, then what's the point? It's like a tree falling in the forest. However, the idolization I could do without, because I feel there's better heroes out there, like firefighters or parents, or doctors.
Sometimes, I don't want anyone to look up to me, and I wonder what a normal life would be like.